SeaLover143

I would love to just lose myself in nature right now.  Nothing seems more calming than just sitting against a tree trunk with my journal and sketch book, listening to the sounds around me.  I've had so many thoughts in my mind lately and it's been so difficult at times.  I know the new year just started but I'm just so anxious to get my life started.  2012 was not a good year for me, it wasn't until the end of the year when I started to gain confidence in myself and a drive to be more independent.  I know what I want the end result to be, I know how I want to feel about myself..it's just the journey is stumping me.  It's so frustrating to go

"I've been thinking We should be talking it through You must believe me I'll make it up to you Cause I now know better To hurt you was wrong Girl it's with you I belong" - Somebody Needs You- Westlife I kinda love that this is the first song that played on my iTunes.  I ask for signs and they seem to always show up in songs. :) I hate feeling lost and unsure, especially when I started out the day in an okay mood.  It's like this feeling hits me at times, I don't know why, and I just kinda feel down. It sucks.  I've been spending sometime looking at my past marine term pictures, and I've come to the conclusion that what I need right no

I still haven't been able to work on my elephant drawing.  I feel like I have artist block or something.  I've just been feeling off lately, kind of lacking confidence and I don't know why.  Usually I would start beating myself about it, but tonight I just decided I don't want to feel like that anymore.  Music is kind of my release and all I need to do is put on my shuffle, and the songs that play are the exact songs I need to hear.  I feel so much better and so beautiful right now.  The fact that I was able to kick the doubts out of my head lets me know I'm changing.  I've been seeing butterflies everywhere lately (mostly in art) and I feel